Thats the ? of the day and ive been seriously thinkin about it and getin really worked up about it... i mean im 15 i should still be able to have fun but obviosuly ppl think theres a limit...well this is how im gonna deal with it. You either love me for who i am or hate me for who i am. its me. i cant change and yes i can steettle some shit down a bit. but other then that im nto changing. i admit i act young for my age but i cant help it and i have fun and i know when to be serious. idunno it really sucks at this stage of life when u dont know how to act or be and u watchall ur friends changing. its so differnt now these days..im not as close to kevin or amber or ali. and its just sad...but i do know ppl who say i shouldnt change how i am and to be immature and just have fun. and   i think im gonna go with them everyone should have a little cara in there life. its what makes it fun. hahahaha :-) I might as well be soemthing i am then something im not.


Ne ways

today went by SOOO slow it wasnt even funny.

but w.e the day is over adn toamrrow is fuckin friday

which means green day and sugarcult and since i feel better cuz ppl make me laugh im ready to go!


ahhh tomarrow is gonna go by so slow also

but green day


and i have spanishwith my hottlishesoious kate

and SH with nikkilousious greg kevin and leeann thats always fun

Imgonna watch ER

who ever talked to me and made me feel better tonite..t.hanks seriously sometimes i dunno what i would do without ppl like u guys to talk too. u gusy are all speical in ur own little ways...even if u yell becuz they have ads in the middle of articles haha jill luv u

Haha so yea i havent wrote in this in a long time and kate has been btichin about ti everytime (shes obviously the only one who reads it tho) awesome im so loved. :-)  now i have been busy but that doesnt nescesrly mean i have a life. it just means im even more lazier to type www.blogdrive.com haha sooo bored........and now im mad tired.


OK so what has happend lately...

Yea like always nothing really happend today..

School. Bio sucked. Like always.

Global. 2 100's prolly the best ive ever done in my life in global since im retarded (Yes the ones that she gives the answers too in advance.)

Spanish haha kate and jess are in shit with some preppies. got bored. took a nap for 15 mins. uh yea thats about all since i hate that class.

and Study Hall. Kevin ignored me. Fine with that. Talked to nichole and thats about all that happend in my day other then after school and doing our bio project with amber. haha and talkin to preverted logan ive missed him.

but not icky potooeoeoe soup when ron doesnt get me chickin noodle. what a bitch and beets me to the bathroom lol

 

 

 

Do you want to come to a party
My friends picked me up in their truck at 11:30
This things at a frat house but the people are cool there
Reluctant I followed but never dreamed there
Would be someone there who would catch my attention
I wasn't out looking for love or affection
So I paid my 3 and the girls got in free
Shine the beer and tequila and we headed into the party
And then in the backyard some terrible ska band
Someone in the background was doing a keg stand
This place is so lame all these girls look the same
All thse guys have no game I wish I would have stayed
In my bed back at home watching TV alone
Where I'd put on some porn or have sex on the phone
Far from people I hate down from anywhere state
Trying to intoxicate girls to give them head after the party
And then I saw her standing there
With green eyes and long blond hair
She wasn't wearing underwear at least I prayed that
She might be the one maybe we'd have some fun
Maybe we'd watch the sun rise
But that night I learned some girls try too hard
Some girls try too hard
Some girls try too hard to impress
With the way that they dress
With those things on their chests
And the things they suggest to me
I couldn't believe what this lady was saying
The names she was dropping the games she was playing
She dated this guy who now rides for Black Flys
How she's down with the Iwise well constructed disguise
Now I'd rather go dateless than stay here and hate this
Her volume of makeup her fake tits were tasteless
So I said I'd call her but never would bother
Until I got turned down by another girl at a party
So when you see her standing there
With green eyes and long blonde hair
She won't be wearing underwear and you'll discover
This girl's not the one and she'll never be fun
You should just turn and run because you'll find out that
Some girls try too hard
Some girls try too hard to impress with the way that they dress
With those things on their chest And the things they suggest to me

REALLY BORED so im gonna do the ultiment of boredness YAY

[ CURRENT .. ]
- Current Clothes: Uhhhh my sweat pants and my moose shirt HAHA ri i know u love it
- Current Mood: Bored duh and pretty tired
- Current Music: Pulling teeth GREEN DAY
- Current Taste: Phelym haha i dunno
- Current Make-up: none
- Current Hair: Up like always
- Current Smell: Eww i smell like funk
- Current thing I ought to be doing: Umm prolly sleeping since im sick
- Current Desktop Picture: Pictures of my friends YAY i love them..except kevins pic
- Current Favorite Artist: Green day, My chemical romance, Sugarcult....they all kick ass
- Current Favorite Group: ^^^Uh isnt that the same thing?
- Current Book: Ruby....One of those crazy incest books te he
- Current CD in CD Player: American Idiot GREEN DAY
- Current tape in VCR: Day after tomarrow
- Current Color Of Nails: none
- Current Refreshment: Sprite
- Current Worry: uhhh no ride to green day concert (O and note on that if ur willing to give us a ride IM me hahaha)

[ LAST .. ]
- You Touched: The keybord lol
- You Talked to: Curt...Im talkin to the whore bore now
- You Hugged: Ri i think.
- You Instant messaged: ^^^ opps yea curt
- You Yelled At: My brother of course..

[ FAV0RiTE .. ]
- Foods: Oreos when im not sick of them...chips ahoy..pizza...peice of cake ice cream...BBQ breaded chickin wings from belladessa...w.e im craving
- Color: Black...red...blue...pink haha
- Album: Prolly american idiot or of course britney spears greatest hits kicks ass haha
- Shoes: Sneakers prolly my vans
- Candy: FASTBREAK MMMMM
- Animal: Mouse. R.I.P beanie i love u forever and always and red/pink...and paw paw i love them and prolly beagle
- TV Show: Desperate housewives, uh w,e is on
- Song: PINA COLADA SONG....u cant go wrong with that song! and ne green day my chemical romance and sugaruclt
- Vegetable: Salad lol
- Fruit: Mmm oranges watermelons grapes banananas green apples
- Cartoon: The oblongs

[ ARE Y0U .. ]
- Understanding: umm maybe depends on the situation
- Open-minded: dont know what that means lol prolly not
- Arrogant: ^^^ wait if it means full of urself liek curt said no

- Insecure: Yea about my weight lol
- Interesting: te he u tell me i love my wuvalump, rocky horror and food. Intresintg?
- Easily Amused: YES

- Random: no not really

- Hungry: no not really

- Friendly: Te he YES of coruse i am i love ppl
- Smart: Uh depends if i have ppl i like in my class
- Moody: alot
- Childish: yes but i dunno i can be grown up when i want too
- Independent: yes alot
- Healthy: no i have pnemonia need i say more haha
- Shy: no not really depends on the ppl im with
- Difficult: yea most of the time lol
- Bored Easily: When no ones online...no friends are over..and nothings on t.v. yea i am!
- Messy: Te he have u even seen me eat chickin wings?
- Thirsty: no
- Responsible: Yea most of the time
- Obsessed: Some things like billie joe armstrong OMFG yes!!!
- Angry: uhh was a few days ago but i got over it
- Sad: i cried watching day after tomarow lol
- Happy: Yea ok....except im sturrborn aprently lol
- Hyper: not tonite feeling kinda sick
- Trusting: huh lol o i thought that said thrusting. ummm yea to an extend i trust ppl...wait i think i got that wrong. yea if i love u..u can trust me
- Talkative: YES

[ WH0 D0 Y0U WANT T0 .. ]
- Kill: Kevin a few days ago...but again im over it...but if u wanna go ahead
- Slap: no one might as well kill
- Tickle: uh why do u wnana tickle ppl...kinda creepy but prolly jill cuz i love her
- Talk To Offline: Alicia and ri
- Talk To Online: Prolly Waters cuz i wannna see if hes feeling better

HAVE Y0U EVER ..
- Been kissed? yes
- Done Drugs? ehhhh lol
- Eaten an entire box of Oreos? YES i had 12 boxes once no wait 15! not at once tho but soo good
- Been on stage? huh??
- Dumped Someone? yea
- Gotten in a car accident? no i wish maybe it would make my life intresitng
- Been in love? Haha no u shouldnt belive at love at this age..and if u said yes at this ? ur such a weirdo hahahaha go out have fun..dont fall in love

[ FAV0RiTE .. ]
-Room in your house? my room and kitchen
-Instrument? Eh bass cuz i play it and guitar cuz there are some talented ppl out there

[ EiTHER/0R .. ]
-Coffee or hot chocolate? Both
-big or little? Little...fat ppl suck and i feel bad for them
-Lace or satin? Lace i dunno what satin is
-New or old? Old on most things. new on new things lol
-Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt? Tom cruise
-Vogue or Cosmopolitan? Cosmo lol
-Jeans or cords? jeans
-Sweater or sweatshirt? Hoodie
-T-shirt or tank top? tank top
-Skirt or dress? Ew i dont wear either but prolyl dress
-Wool or cotton? whats wool?
-Rose or Lily? rose
-Oldies or pop? ummm cant go wrong with n*sync hhaahhaha
-Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? NO
-Do you have a best friend? Yes 4 very very very great ones.

[ iN THE LAST 24 H0URS, HAVE Y0U .. ]
- Cried? YES
- Helped someone? Eh i dunno have i?
- Bought something? yeah
- Gotten sick? i have pnemonia of course
- Gone to the movies? nope
- Gone out for dinner? no
- Said "I love you"? yes to ri i think maybe eh i dunno no wait yea to curt and jill lol
- Written a real letter? no..but i burned one teh e
- Moved on? Yes thank fcukin god on that
- Talked to an ex? no
- Missed an ex? NO
- Talked to someone you have a crush on? eh i dunno yet
- Had a serious talk? About me being stubborn kidna lol and yes
- Missed someone? yea
- Hugged someone? yes
- Fought with your parents? dude for the 1st time in my life i didnt fight iwth my parentals today! wiat my mom kinda yelled at me for going out with ri for a few mins being sick and all lol
- Fought with a friend? no

[ D0 Y0U .. ]
- Wear eye shadow? nahh

- Have a crush on someone? i dunno yet

- Eat with your mouth open? hehe when i wanna
- If you got a tattoo, where would you get it?- my lower back if im not fat and my shoulder
- What color is your floor/carpet in your room? hard wood floors
- What was the last CD you bought? American Idiot
- How did you spend last summer? With ri...mostly and ali...and amber..and kc..and yea lol and with kevin haha
- When's the last time you showered? dude 2 days ago cuz i havent left the house haha
- Are you lonely? not really
- Are you happy? most of the time YAY
- Are you wearing pajamas? yesssssssss
- Are you talking to someone online? not ne more its 11 and the losers have school tomarrow haha
- What is your astrological sign?

Cancer sooo now if u dont know me u kidna do now woo how intresing huh? im going to bed nighttttt bitches

 

im bored and kate yelled at me to make one of these again.


rufio sucks


uh i get to stay home again YAY for that.


today was ok i hung out with ri YAYA cuz ive been so bored that it was good to see one of my friends again


i watched day after tomarrow with my mommmmma yea definelty cried im such aloser..


and that was my day nothing intresting but w.e


sooooo im going night night cuz even tho im stayin home tomarrow i wanna work out and do my homework earlyyy


BYE BYE

but then again i also have pnaemoia. ewww. or what ever. its only a small case so ill be better soon thnak fuckin god.

i have cabin fever and im going crazy not being able to leave and NO


lol


amber thinks its funny

there all at the gay dance right now and im sittin here like a loser. woo but i did get to burn stuff today now that was fun. yes it was a bunch of kevins stuff but u would 2 if one of ur best fuckin friends pulled this shit on u. but im over it.

and im kinda happy hes out of my life.

so me and kevin are not friends ne more. avisouly or how ever u spell it. and i think its for the best and actually im not mad witch is weird. jill made it pretty funny haha i love her.

haha so i have bronsictius or w.e and feel like shit and on fuckin top of that...


kevin can never hang out with me ne more cuz aprently keesha might get pissed off.. uh yea fuckin retard i dont see why u cant fuckin hang out with ur FRIEND. its not the complicated u can hang with guys right or wait maybe u cant do that either. u quit smoking u quit drugs now ur qutting everything else. ive awalys been fuckin there for u kevin for every little fuckin thing and u cant be there for me thats fuckin bull shit and u fuckin know it..i asked for u to hang out with me and i have to hang with keesha too umm no. cuz all u guys do is skrew around ne ways. haha yea maber told me and u wernt takin advangetage of ne thing uh yea. well u know what ur right fuck it. u have her u dont need NE ONE else in ur life and thats excatly where its heading. and ppl need to get it through there fuckin thick heads that i DONT like u ne more...i dont even fuckin know if i like u as a friend cuz obviously i shouldnt. fuck it kevin ur completly right. fuck it.


ne ways


i still dont feel good so i think im gonan lay down.


o and kesha this has nothing to do with u i have no problem with u...but why cant he hang out with me huh?

w.e


I don't feel the way I've ever felt.
I know.
I'm gonna smile and not get worried.
I try but it shows.

Anyone can make what I have built.
And better now
Anyone can find the same white pills.
It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]
It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Nevermind these are horrid times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.

I never thought I'd walk away from you.
I did.
But it's a false sense of accomplishment.
Everytime time I quit

Anyone can see my every flaw.
It isn't hard.
Anyone can say they're above this all.
It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]

[Guitar Bridge]

I can't let it bother me.

[Guitar Solo]

It takes my pain away.

[Chorus]